family.
"who knows you better than your family?"
mum,
you may laugh at her for her actions but you don't know a thing she has gone through. she may be stronger than you can ever be and you choose to judge her. sometimes her daughter does wonder, if she's even half as strong as her. if it happened to her instead, how would it hit her? She'd probably give up on everything. but no, her mother has that faith. faith that everything will be fine. she neither lets fear nor worry trouble her. and that's because she knows all of us support her. but all she ever wanted was for her daughter to spend more time with her.
dad,
you may not know, how much he's sacrificed for his family. the countless number of hours he gives up just to accompany his wife and just to send his children to school, to anywhere, even if it's just the nearby train station. just to make his wife feel better, he provides everything he can give. going the extra mile just to get his family's favourite food and making sure their tummies are filled. the main pillar of strength in his family. going all out just to make sure his family is safe, even if it risks his own life. sacrificial love isn't it? all he ever wanted was his daughter to come home earlier.
brother,
it's kinda complicated when he's at this age. prolly no one in the family understands what he's going through. though there are many quarrels, he still cares. he's gone through hell but he's still strong. though he may not show it, his parents & sister are his main priorities. helping out at home with chores when he's at home when no one's free, getting food for his mum whenever she's hungry. sacrificing time with his friends just to do all these little but meaningful things for his family, a role model to me. all he ever wanted was his sister to be more sensible.
daughter,
but it all boils down to her. what has she done for the family? or actually what good has she done? constantly causing her parents to worry, not lifting a finger to help at home nor sacrificing a little just to help her family members out. she's too caught up with going out, having fun, leading a more or less carefree life. but never did she think about just spending a day at home, accompanying her mum. or helping her brother out by walking a little to pass him his notes. or even setting off a little earlier, coming home a little earlier so her dad doesn't have to worry about where she's at or what she's doing. just a simple act like dropping a single text to tell her parents where she's going or what time she's going home, she didn't a feel a need to do it. it's kinda ironic isn't it? the person facing the least problems, is causing most of the problems to her family. sometimes she wonders, what would her family be like, if she didn't exist? honestly, she felt that life for them would be much better. but she knew that they didn't want her to think that way.
a family's love can't merely be described with words. but actions.
so she promised herself, to try to undo all the hurt, all the pain she's caused. and to be a better family member. because she knows, even if all else fails, her family will always be there for her.
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Wednesday, November 6, 2013 (5:05 AM)
Joanna Loh.
